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MY DARLIN MARILYN WELL ITS 230 IN THE MORNING. I COULDN'T SLEEP. I WAS THINKING ABOUT YOU.I WANT WHATS BEST FOR YOU NOT WHATS BEST FOR ME.IF YOU DON'T REALLY WANT TO COME BACK.THEN DON'T.I WANT YOU TO COME HOME BECAUSE YOU LOVE ME. I DON'T WANT YOU TO COME HOME IF THE REASON IS YOU FEEL SORRY FOR ME.I AM TO BLAME NOT YOU.YOU TRUSTED ME AND I FAILED YOU I TRULY LOVE YOU GIRL AND WILL CONTINUE TO LOVE YOU TILL THE DAY I DIE AND EVEN AFTER THAT, BUT I WANT YOU TO BE HAPPY.ONE LETTER FROM YOU TELLING ME WE ARE THROUGH AND I PROMISE YOU WILL NEVER HEAR FROM ME AGAIN.I THINK BY NOW YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL ABOUT YOU. I AM WRITING THIS BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN HAVING NIGHTMARES.I AM YOUR BIGGEST FAN.YOUR LOVE IS SO IMPORTANT TO ME. I AM SO SORRY FOR HAVING RAISED MY VOICE TO YOU.YOU DESERVED BETTER AND I FEEL LIKE A REAL PIECE OF SHIT FOR HAVING DONE IT.A REAL MAN WOULD HAVE TREATED YOU WITH THE RESPECT YOU DESERVE I WILL NEVER FORGIVE MYSELF FOR THAT I PROMISE I WILL NEVER DO THAT TO YOU AGAIN.THE THOUGHT THAT YOU WERE AFRAID OF ME IS JUST EATING ME UP INSIDE.I ALWAYS WANTED YOU TO FEEL SAFE WITH ME.I AM JUST BABBLING NOW SO ILL CLOSE FOR NOW AND TRY AND GET SOME SLEEP.BUT I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT IF YOU CANT FORGIVE ME I WILL UNDERSTAND. YOU NEVER DESERVED THAT KIND OF TREATMENT ESPECIALLY FROM SOMEONE YOU LOVED.GOODNIGHT MY SWEETNESS. I WILL BE WAITING FOR YOUR CALL IN THE MORNING I TRULY WORSHIP THE GROUND YOU WALK ON.
WITH ALL MY LOVE
LeVant