my journal

8/27/09 thursday
Marilyn called late last night.She told me she was not going to come home.I felt devastated.I can't go on like this walking the edgeanymore.Wonderingwhen she was or if she was coming home.So i did the unthinkable. I sent her an e-mail telling her i know its over so we need not talk anymore.No kind of contact of any kind.You have no idea how hard it was to hit the send button. I must have stared at that button for an hour before hitting it.It was the hardest thing i have ever done.I am sorry i did it now.I looked forward to hearing her voice.Now i have all the time in the world to cry and i have.How long does it take for a broken heart to mend.