my journal

8/25/09 Tuesday
I am now thinking she is not coming home.I think she is afraid to tell me this.She probibly doesn't want to hurt me anymore thaen she already hasbut i wish she would be honest with me.I know she deserves better then i can offer her.I know this.I just want to hold her in my arms one more time.To kiss her sweet lips again and savor the moment forever.What a fool i was.All those nights she was right next to me and all she wanted was a little attention and tenderness.She wanted me to show her i cared and what did i do?Iturned over and went to sleep.Because of myE.D. i have felt like half a man.