E-mails

I am seriously considering taking a good amount of pills. I hurt you way more than anyone deserves to be hurt. You have been kind to me in more ways than I can tell anyone. Yes, even Nicole. You have a different relationship with your kids. You are "friends". I was harsher and was afraid that they would get in bad trouble. I wanted to make sure they weren't potheads or alcoholics. I was afraid that Nicole would get knocked up and now she is afraid to have a child. It is my fault.I won't do it today. I want to make sure that nobody is going to get in the way this time. You are not here to stop me either.Nobody will "have me" but the devil. That's what I deserve for causing you pain.